Loving Life...not

Ok, I just found out that I have a lovely health assement due today, yes I did say today. And well I forgot. I completely forgot. I didn't even have a clue that something was due. That is what happens when my mind is in ten thousand places.

So I finished my midterm in psych just now, I hope that it goes atleast some what well. I hope that when I check my mark tonight that I'm not crying while looking at it. I've been able to keep a A- in the class so far. But I have no idea how that is going now. It doesn't matter though. It really soesn't matter. All I'm waiting for is March Break to come. Yes, I might be working that whole march break but it still would be nice. just not to concentrate on school. But even than I have an assignment to do, and thousand other things to work on also. But well, got to what I got to do, to stay a float! Yes I know bad swimming instructor pun. I can't help it.

Ok going to play games to relax and get my mind off of things. And those midterms and well everything.

Home for a day...with no FAMILY!

So this is the first night, well in a long time that I've been able to have the whole house to myself for the entire night. And it feels great. Just lying around...doing nothing, well except for the fact that I had to go to work this morning, talk with parents, and deal with kids who don't listen to me. I just wish all the kids could be sweet little angels that can do whatever I ask them. What a world we could live in if all children were like that.

Like this morning my very first class, two very "active" little boys. One will go in one direction the other will go in the other direction and than they will try to drown at the exact same time. There is only one of me people, imagine how this turns out. I magically split in two and am able to go after both bays at the same time, NO!! So you run and get one kid and pick him up, than you run and get the other kid and pick him up, therefore you have a kid under each arm and than two other kids sitting on the stairs waiting for you to teach but you can't but you are trying to keep two, little munchkins from killing themselves.

And than once nightmare of teaching swimming lessons is finished I went and got chinese food. Yes good ole MSG! Than, I had the privelage of making my own descision and driving to shoppers to pick up lip gloss and hand cream, and well popcorn to veg out with tonight!! yeah butter popcorn!!

So yes, that are my goals for this evening is to study and eat, well what more could a girl ask for. ok Three midterms coming up, I've got to atleast know something!

Loser Status

My loser status, but I'm not a loser at all, try it out it's kind of cool...hahaha. I know I should go to class now!!

ER

Last night I watched ER (the TV show for anyone who doesn't know) and last nights episode was about two doctors on either side of the world fighting for lives, and well it showed a war medical unit. And I said to myself, "Would I ever do that?" Than it got me to thinking, I could do that if I wanted to. I would be a completely different person if I ever did that. I'd come home and I would begin to really appreciate things more so than I do now. But the questions is would I? Being in a war torn country offering medical help. At one point the doctor in the war unit had to turn away civilians and tell then to go to a hospital in another town because she wasn't sick enough for him to help her. Could I turn people away that needed help, but I did not have supplies to treat, because if I treated her it meant less supplies for the soliders that came to see me. Crazy world! I have no idea what it would be like though.

I have decided though for atleast some of my nursing career I will spend in some rotten place. Don't know where yet. But probably someplace in Africa, or even where the Tsunami struck. I could offer giving vaccines, and different kinds of medecine for the people of a town. I'm sure there's something that I'm supposed to do I just have to find it.

So that's enough talking about nursing, I know it's Practically my life now but it doesn't mean it has to consume my mind too. Which reminds me lately my mind has been in the clouds lately. Yes I said in the clouds. I can barely concentrate on class, I don't talk to anyone, I don't even watch much tv, I've just been thinking all the time it feels like. Well I've has lots of time to think because I litterally go home from school and into bed (because of my "cold" it's now a cold because Lindsay said so, my sickness has been downgraded to a cold *tear*) So because I go to bed, I start thinking.

Some of the things I think about:

What life would be like married?
What would happen if I gave up Nursing and became a fulltime soap writer? (that one really sounds like fun)
What life would be like when my parents are old and I have to take care of them.
The many places I could work (on a cruise ship, a texas hospital, a war torn country, or here)
What summer job I want?
What next year will be like?
If I'll ever fall in love (that ones been a biggy on my mind)
Who will be in my wedding? (when it's time)
How early can a newborn baby fly (I mean on a plane, not really by himself)
Where will I be in 5 years?
Will I take any crazy spring break vacations during my University "career"?

So yah those are just a few of the things my brain has decided to concentrate on, so there is no room for information about the respiratory system or about how children develop, or how nursing is transcultural. yeah, don't have anyroom in my head for any of that stuff. The respiratory system sucks anyway. (literally it sucks air) Ok, see ya later!

Hopefully this weekend that I spend by myself I'll be able to catch up on my homework/study time.

Need a Rest!

You know when you are anticipating something and you know you don't have enough time to do it and do it properly, but than when it's done you realize, hey it's not so bad. That's what happened today. I did my presentation (supposed to be 5 minutes) well turned out to be a little more, at least I think it did. Maybe it just seems like time goes on forever when you're in front of everyone. Well yesterday I went and Got all worked up and worried that I wouldn't have enough time to finish it, study and do everything I needed to do. Well everything is done, my test is done, my presentation is done, and it went fine. I always make things bigger than they need to be. I didn't have to get so worked up over nothing. So now because I got all worked up and freaked out and stressed out. I need a rest!

I get to rest tommorow!!! NO school!! Finished lab!! DO NOT have to come to school, so that means I can sleep in!!! YAY! WOOT! YIPEE!! ok I'm done, going to play on pogo now, which by the way was shut down on tuesday which made me very upset that I couldn't play.

Have a nice day!!

SICK *cough* *sneeze*

ok, so I'm sick. Yes the nursing student is home sick today. Whatever am I going to do when I'm around sick people most of the time. I have to increase my immune system or something. Actually I think I caught it somewhere else. Maybe from the kids I teach swimming lessons to, kids always have germs to pass around may be that's how it happened. Yup so I'm sick hopefully I'll feel better tommorow! hopefully! I still haven't been able to eat much except dried corn pops, no milk for this girl...that would be a sure sign of what ever I eat coming back to taste a second time. Sorry for the graphics. Yes, well I going to watch a movie and fall asleep during it...That's what I do when I don't feel well, pop in a movie and sleep during half of it. YAY! Movie time.