ER

Last night I watched ER (the TV show for anyone who doesn't know) and last nights episode was about two doctors on either side of the world fighting for lives, and well it showed a war medical unit. And I said to myself, "Would I ever do that?" Than it got me to thinking, I could do that if I wanted to. I would be a completely different person if I ever did that. I'd come home and I would begin to really appreciate things more so than I do now. But the questions is would I? Being in a war torn country offering medical help. At one point the doctor in the war unit had to turn away civilians and tell then to go to a hospital in another town because she wasn't sick enough for him to help her. Could I turn people away that needed help, but I did not have supplies to treat, because if I treated her it meant less supplies for the soliders that came to see me. Crazy world! I have no idea what it would be like though.

I have decided though for atleast some of my nursing career I will spend in some rotten place. Don't know where yet. But probably someplace in Africa, or even where the Tsunami struck. I could offer giving vaccines, and different kinds of medecine for the people of a town. I'm sure there's something that I'm supposed to do I just have to find it.

So that's enough talking about nursing, I know it's Practically my life now but it doesn't mean it has to consume my mind too. Which reminds me lately my mind has been in the clouds lately. Yes I said in the clouds. I can barely concentrate on class, I don't talk to anyone, I don't even watch much tv, I've just been thinking all the time it feels like. Well I've has lots of time to think because I litterally go home from school and into bed (because of my "cold" it's now a cold because Lindsay said so, my sickness has been downgraded to a cold *tear*) So because I go to bed, I start thinking.

Some of the things I think about:

What life would be like married?
What would happen if I gave up Nursing and became a fulltime soap writer? (that one really sounds like fun)
What life would be like when my parents are old and I have to take care of them.
The many places I could work (on a cruise ship, a texas hospital, a war torn country, or here)
What summer job I want?
What next year will be like?
If I'll ever fall in love (that ones been a biggy on my mind)
Who will be in my wedding? (when it's time)
How early can a newborn baby fly (I mean on a plane, not really by himself)
Where will I be in 5 years?
Will I take any crazy spring break vacations during my University "career"?

So yah those are just a few of the things my brain has decided to concentrate on, so there is no room for information about the respiratory system or about how children develop, or how nursing is transcultural. yeah, don't have anyroom in my head for any of that stuff. The respiratory system sucks anyway. (literally it sucks air) Ok, see ya later!

Hopefully this weekend that I spend by myself I'll be able to catch up on my homework/study time.