Gilmore Girls

Now the reason I chose this title is because I am watching Gilmore Girls right at this moment. It's an old episode, but I like it!

What to say? What to say? It is either very late a night right now, or very early in the morning. Depending on who you are! I'm going with late at night because I haven't gone to sleep yet! In all honesty I can't sleep, I have so much on my mind! But the thing is I don't know what is on my mind? There is just so many situations and things going on, I can't decide what one thing I'm thinking about or even that one thing that is making me anxious!

These past few nights as I'm climbing in bed I get this really anxious feeling in my gut! I feel as if my stomach is continuely turning over, but what makes it worse is I have no idea what could be causing it. But than again a lot of things could be causing it!

I think if maybe I write it out, I won't feel so tied up inside! And the ulcer that seems to be growing won't kill me before my time!

1. I'm working, working really hard for Reitman's I'm not the best at it, but I really really try hard, but sometimes it's still not good enough! You have to really sell yourself in this job! that means selling the clothes saying the right thing, pushing your product...that's a lot of pressure, I've only worked there a little over a month and it's still hard, I thought it would get much easier by this time?

2. My new job! this I think is what would cause the ulcer! I'm am terrified of this new job. I have no idea what is expected of me, I have no idea if my skills are good enough for what they need. I haven't been able to get a hold of anyone to get my reference letter from yet, as well I haven't been able to get my health and pysical document thingy yet either! Which is due Wednesday. Plus i have to photocopy a bunch of other things as well, including my high school diploma! I don't know if I'll have this all ready for the 8th!

3. Coordinating between old job and new job. Scheduling sucks! I don't know if I'll have the energy to do both jobs, get enough sleep or even enough food to sustain me for both jobs and between both jobs. I can't be working a shift at the hospital while working a shift at Reitman's. I can't be in two places at once!!!

4. The end of summer. I know this seems far away but I'm anxious for it because the end of summer means a lot of things, Friends going away, other friends coming back, starting school again (which means studying again) Organizing events for the Nursing Society! That's just a bucket of I don't know what it's a bucket of but it's just no fun!!

5. Church. Now I know that seems like a weird kind of thing that would cause stress but it really has. What with a new youth pastor and having changes happen. Change can be hard to handle. Plus I forgot how much I missed teaching sunday school, but I can't teach right now because of work! Work actually schedules me for a lot of sunday's!!

There it's all out in the open, and those of you who checked to day and are like...why is the time like 2 in the morning, because that is the time when I first wrote this, than it got erased some how!!! Talk about bad luck, so I wrote it all over again. So this is the second version of my Horrible ulcer creating LIFE!!