Pictures...Bonfire

This is the night we went to Andrew's Grandparents house and had bonfire down by the water. This was later that night when his family had left.





Nick playing chubby bunny, I think he was able to get 12 in there!!


I found pictures...I haven't posted these ones here...If i posted them on the 10 forever blog, I'm sorry you'll just have to look at them twice.

U can't be serious

Ever gone into a class thinking, this should be a good day, I've done ALL my readings for this class, I feel as if I have a grasp on the topic, This should be a good class. Well I did today, but I certainly didn't come out of there thinking that. So I went out of that class thinking percisely this " U can't be Serious?". The class was exhilerating as always, one of the most dryest subjects, Research. And we are talking about hypotheses, research problems, critical thinking, directional, and undirectional, the prof is stopping to ask each person their opinion, and get them to answer a question, nobody is getting the right answer, and the answers we are giving are not what she wants. I'm getting confused as the minutes go on, because a comment a student will say makes the prof go on a tangent, therefore discussing things that I don't quite get. Then she wanted to knkow about the literature review, and theoretical framework (topics of the chapters I read), and I was thinking she was going to explain how to do a literature review, or atleast give us some pointers, NOPE! I hear at 3:30 (we are all ready 10 minutes over the time to be out of class)and she wants us to have a literature review prepared, with notes in front of us about an article in our textbook, so we can discuss it next class. All I could think was "But I don't know how to do a literature review?" So I will be BSing my way through a literature review for next wed. Sounds like fun eh?

oh it gets better, there comes another "U can't be Serious?" moment, 2 in fact. I go up to the peds floor to get my patient information, and there is a little latter there for me. In the letter it explains about clinics (which I did last week) and our assignments for it. This means I have to have a POSTER ready for friday about one of the stations I visited on last Thursday. I then go to get my patient research done. And as I'm reading about my patients I start realizing, I have 2 very complicated patients. I got to the floor this afternoon at about 3:40, and I didn't leave there till 5:10, I was the last from my classmates to leave. Now I have to do research and put together concept maps for 2 complicated patients, it's going to be such a great day tommorow.

Hopefully there will be no more "U can't be serious?" moments.

Anybody else have a "U can't be serious?" moment today???

So much to tell you

Actually I probably do not have anything to tell you that most of you don't all ready know. My BBQ I had to cancel on Sunday, sadly, since it was POURING RAIN!! Therefore I have loads of food in my freezer, which means I will have to reschedule, for when do I have the next BBQ, I"m not sure. But I have decided to have it inside. Yes I know what you are thinking, a BBQ inside, that doesn't sound very smart, but all the cooking and stuff will be done outside, but we will eat inside. I'll work out the details this week. Hopefully, everything works out fine, again.

I didn't work at all this weekend, which I will officially blame on Andrew. Kidding, it's not his fault at all, it's my own for being involved into to many things. And for trying to keep up with everything. Andrew made the comment the other day, when I said I was going to join another thing. It's not like, I'm not busy enough. It's not like I have homework to do, or that I have a room to clean, or work so I can make money, or a nursing society to run, or a youth commitee to be on, or church to go to, or money to raise to go to PEI, and then Toronto, or find the time to spend with Andrew, or to see my family and friends, or even have some alone time where I'm not doing anything. Oh, precious, precious alone time.

oh, and my money management skills are going down the drain, well not completely I'm just mad cause I missed my VISA payment (bought books) cause I swear I never got the letter to say when it was due, and therefore missed it, which meant they uped my minimum payment, and I had to pay interest. I'm so not happy. But I have been trying to save my money...HA! I bought, a pair of jeans today and a belt, and I spent money this weekend, more money then I should have. And I bought a frame, I needed the frame, but it's more oney I'm spending. AH!! Ok, I'm back into control, that's all I need, is some control.

Ok, Hope everyone is enjoying catching up with my life, I'm thinking I should go scrapbook, i haven't done that in a while. I'm still in the middle of doing a page about Dramafest, where letters have been burned, which, I haven't checked out since Lindsay tried to act all innocent and pretend she didn't know something, and wouldn't look me straight in the eye, therefore she decided to burn my letters even more to ignore me. Don't worry, I eventually got it out of her.

Good Night, I'm going to read some more...it's all we ever do when we are in school...READ!!

ER has returned...

Well, I watched the season premiere of ER tonight, and I loved it. Absolutely loved it. Things were resolved, but some other things happened that I did not expect. I was laughing, I was at the edge of my seat, and I cried, I cried more then once. My life now feels more at peace for having this show come back...lol. If you haven't guessed all ready, I love this show. I have Season 1 and 2 on DVD so far. I am slowly working my way up to get them all. I may have them all back next century considering it goes on forever!!

So, lots has been happening in my life...not really. My life is boring, or should I say my life is busy. Each night I'm doing something, and if I'm not doing something, I am studying or reading, or chatting online. I really need to get my priorities straight. School, school comes first...Ha!!


Well this is what I shall call my nonsense blog, because you are probably reading this and thinking..."is she on drugs? Why are all her thoughts scattered?" I am a little scatterbrained, cause well I'm tired, and I still have so much to do!! AH!!!

If I could scream I so would, I wonder if I could put an audio on her of me screaming, it would be such a pleasure, and whenever any of you feel stressed you would just have to press a link, and then you would realize someone is more stressed then you.

This Sunday is the Nursing Society BBQ, I am very nervous for this great and exciting event. It's my first event, and you know what...maybe no one will show up. Maybe I'll be the only one there, and what will I do then. My first event would officially suck if I was the only one there. And every time I ask people if they are coming Sunday, they look at me as if I have 3 heads...and say, what's happening sunday. They say this after I have told them 4 times about the BBQ. It's a little frustrating...

EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE!!! ok, I just need to keep telling myself that...

good night everyone, I hope you all have a great weekend!!!

Somethings Wrong

Ever have this feeling that something is wrong, somethings not quite right. That's how I feel, I feel like somethings been bothering me. Lindsay noticed today, she says I've been cranky these past few days, I haven't been excited about anything, nothing is interesting me. And the truth is, I think she's right. I want to cry at the stupidest most random times, and sometimes for no reason at all. I know somethings bothering me, maybe it's that I've been so busy with Nursing Society stuff and going from one thing to the next. I've been late for classes two days in a row, and both were not my fault. Since Saturday I've been go-go, and it's been things I've wanted to do, and things I've enjoyed, plus all the work I have to do, and all the work I've volunteered for. It's insane, and it seems like I can't do anything right this week. Nothing!! And yet I have so much to do. I lost my patience twice today. It's rare for me to loose my patience even once during a week. That's a big indicator that somethings wrong. Maybe I'm depressed...Lin says I have no enthusiasm. Maybe I am...

First Day

Well tommorow is my first day of school/classes, which technically for me isn't really a class, it is a full day long orientation to the course, plus introductions to the instructors, a test to assess my med math skills, and an evaluation on my skills so far. Sounds terribly exciting doesn't it?? As you can probably well imagine, I'm terrified, yet excited, yet unsure, it's a really great feeling. I'm so scared cause this is 3rd year, this is supposed to be the year that really shows you how to be a nurse. People's lives are going to be placed in my hands, and well that's terrifying. What if I mess up, I'm not perfect. I thought I could handle everything that I have on my plate, what with Nursing Society, Youth Commitee, helping at home, Work, and then school (plus clinical). It's a lot to handle and I'm thinking I'm just realizing all this. I know I would say stuff and joke before, that I will be very busy, but reality is starting to sink in.

I had to review my med math stuff, and some of it came back really easily, but other stuff, well let's just say I'm still confused about it. I thought I knew it, but I guess I didn't as much as I thought. I'm trying to get excited, and trying to think of all the "challenging things I will get to experience" but I'm really scared. I"m scared of becoming an introvert and not having a social life, or even being mean to the ones that need my attention because how do you maintain a relationship (any relationship even with a best friend) unless you make an effort to be interested in each others lives. What if I don't do my part and make that effort, I'd be the one losing out, and I really don't want that to happen. It happened first year, and it killed me a little...I can't let it happen again. :D I love you guys. I'm really scared as I can imagine you all are too. I'll keep you all in my prayers.

Love
Jocelyn

I want to Scream!!

So today is of course the orientation day, where I do my presentation, which technically I don't really have anything prepared. I'm just going to speak, and if anyone has any questions, well I'm winging it. I'm not sure what kind of info they want, and even then I don't have much info because well I haven't had a meeting with anyone of my executives yet. that is for today. Let's just say I have a mind splitting headache and the concept of eating this morning is making me nauseous. Therefore I don't want to eat, and I want to go back to bed. Wouldn't that be nice?? I think it's a brillant idea. That way I won't have to do a thing today. Plus I still haven't heard from the CPR recert course yet I left a message with them on Thursday. I'll have to call them again today. Man my head really hurts, I hope the advil kicks in soon. Anyway, I have to go finish getting ready so I can therefore torture myself. Have a nice day, I know I will.